Carrie Underwood Says She’s ‘Queen of Awkward’ in Marie Claire Interview

Kids, hugs, family, fans ... Carrie Underwood is shockingly honest about it all during a recent interview in Marie Claire magazine. "I was the accident," she says when explaining why she's not "softer." "I have the only-child syndrome going on."

"She was never really a people person," the singer's mother, Carole, reveals in the same article. The family -- including two much older sisters -- never talked about feelings. They weren't "huggy," Underwood dishes, so her reserve can be mistaken as icy, sometimes even by husband Mike Fisher. Early on in her career, this created problems. She would have panic attacks when fans closed in around her. It made her nervous.

"It's a physical reaction, feeling like the walls are closing in," Underwood says. "The fans are great. It's not their fault. I don't ever want to come across as ungrateful. But on my end, it is hard for me to process. Because I am still just me."

As for kids, the 30-year-old says she doesn't feel old enough to be responsible for another human being yet. She's a little selfish, very independent and, at times, awkward. "My husband calls me the queen of awkward moments," she shares. "Anything that can be made awkward, I will make it awkward."

Underwood's Marie Claire cover issue hits newsstands on May 21. The singer has just five dates remaining on her 2013 Blown Away Tour, which wraps up May 23 in Abbotsford, Calif.